are u clean, or are u not?

pakcik bersih :D

sepanjang aku kt kampung, aku ada bincang2 jugak dengan pak sedara aku pasal bersih ni. bukan ape, aku dh tkde idea nk borak apa haha. last2 mcm2 la jugak yg aku dpt tau pasal bersih ni. gini la salasilah yg aku tau pasal bersih ni.

- kempen bersih ni dibuat untuk memastikan pilihanraya d melesia yg ntah bersih ke tak tatau untuk jadi bersih n adil dari sebarang rasuah or ketidakadilan.

- sebelum ni kempen bersih 2.0 ni dah pernah ada bersih 1.0, tapi tak sekecoh yang 2.0 ni. aku pun tatau kenapa.

- sepatutnya kempen bersih ni dibuat sebagai perarakan jalanan, tapi atas nasihat Agung kpd presiden bersih 2.0, maka diorang pun target nk buat kempen kat stadium merdeka. this is so that tiada yang tercedera kut, tapi tadi aku borak dengan ayah aku, dia kata sebab tknak nnt ade pihak2 berita international mcm al jazeera dpt snap, or even 'better' buat video perarakan bersih ni, n siarkan untuk tontonan umum d seluruh negara, maka jatuhlah imej negara n kemudian, jatuhlah ekonomi negara. tapi bila aku fikir balik, kalau ekonomi negara jatuh, rasa2 rakyat rugi lebih or kerajaan yang rugi lebih, or shud i say, orang2 yg berkerja dalam kerajaan? :)

- memang sepatutnya kempen bersih ni dibuat d stadium nasional, tapi polis tak bagi, or ada yang kata, mereka tk dapat kelulusan lagi dari pihak stadium untuk membuat kempen ni. padahal Agung dh bagi green light abes dah. konpius2

- aku tgk kt yahoo meleis tadi, diorang target nk buat jugak kt stadium tu, regardless depa dapat kelulusan ke tak. yuk kita riotkan stadium tu :D


sebagai pengajaran di sini, kita tak perlu taktik kotor dalam apa2 jenis politik. kita cuma perlu keadilan dan saksama dan jauhilah dari apa bentuk rasuah, kerna duit haram memang sememangnya haram.

#1.

last tuesday, i make stupid decision that changes my whole world. or literally, ripped my world apart. it was a stupid, illogical action that i make at my hometown, terengganu. i won't tell you what is it that i made but its very life-changing, and it hits me in the head and says,


fazrin, you've changed way too much. and you are an ass now. too stupid for even this body could take.


right after making that very stupid decision, i realize that. i've changed, wayyyyyyyyyyyy too much. then i read back all the post in this blog. yeah, i do change that much. i did not realize it. i don't know, but i really think that going to sydney is the thing that changes me that much. i blame it over culture shock. when i think it over, yeah i think it really is culture shock. these past four months, i did not know what the hell were i'm doing actually in sydney. study? pfft. kiss my sorry ass la study. i don't think i study that much. i think when i went to sydney, i became a robot, but without any function. useless robot, as you know, wander off pointlessly. and that's what i am until yesterday. i know it sounds super stupid, and the reason that i give for that decision is more stupid that i could never be stupider, but i can feel myself again. the man who once a happy-go-lucky person, laughs at stupid jokes, and loves a woman.

before this, the robot doesn't laugh, he doesn't even know what to do with his life. he lives life pointlessly. and most importantly, breaks the heart of his loved one.

if you traverse from post to post from the beginning of this blog, you can really see, that i've changed. to a fucking monster. abomination. now, after that decision was made, i lost my dearest one, and i can feel gruesome hatred from every people i see. heck, they don't even want to talk to me anymore. i don't know how to fix these things. i love her. i really do. i know i don't deserve another chance. i don't even know how to guarantee it to you. but i promise you this.


i'll keep this fazrin here in this very body, and won't let him go even if he has to meet his maker.


i know it sounds like janji manis, but this i promise you.

boomshakalaka!

hello blog. its been a while since i've seen u didn't i? :) the life at sydney is quite hectic i must say. but nonetheless, it's treating me well. i've decided to make this post out of boredness here in terengganu. and i thought that tonight i could go and get me some hookah here. yep u heard me, there's hookah in bumi penyu! :) im proud of it. hihi. well, no matter how i long for it, i don't have the guts to ask the permission from my grandmother to go out. she's kind of strict, stricter than my mum to be exact, but in a weird way, that's okay with me. idk maybe she's good to me? :D either way, i'll try to ask her.

back to sydney's life. four months in sydney feels like forever. but a day before i flew back to malaysia, i kinda miss the moments in sydney. the people who drink and became drunk like monkeys at the bar, my friends, i dont know. it suddenly feels like home there. here's my address :D

39/215 Bridge Road
Glebe NSW
2037 Sydney
Australia

do come and visit me sometimes :) the weather there before i came to malaysia was around 11- 15 degrees, which is cold. i kinda get used to the weather and that actually is not good for me who came back to malaysia that has the temperature of 38 degrees -______- not to say something gedik or poyo or anything seriously, but it is hot here, im not lying. when you have lived in a cold weather for 4 months, and suddenly you come to a hot country, you'll end up catching fever.

well then, till next time blog. bye.