only left a few days until 2012 is over. fuck the mayans.
this is where i start, picking where i left off from the last post. everything seemed not fine with me. i find myself to overthink everything. i think i maybe think too much, perhaps. oh, i'm currently in Malaysia too. my home country. i love how heartwarming it felt everytime i stepped outside the plane, it feels just like home. i don't want to be patriotic here, but somehow i couldn't see the pride of being a malaysian on the society here. maybe if they lived off on other countries for a year or two and came back, they would know that Malaysia's always the best place to live in. despite the traffic jams and whatnot. we can tolerate that, don't we.
enough with philosophies. now for some updates. i currently failed a subject, for which i have the most confidence on scoring, which is physics. yes, physics. no, it is not that easy, but it isn't that hard either. most of the questions that i did on past years came out. perhaps i had low carry marks for that subject. funny thing is, the other three electrical, yes electrical, subjects that i had confidence in failing, i passed. this is, perhaps, how life works. you take matter too easily in your hands, and they'll fuck you up. or perhaps the lecturer mark my paper wrongly somehow. i don't know. well, that accounts for two subjects failed in two years. i need to be stronger than now to sustain another two. i couldn't risk another failure. maybe i'll take winter school next year. and the year after that.
enough with studies. how's my life going, you ask? it sucked. the end.
i hate it when you can imagine all you want, what you want, anything and everything and all that in your head, but at the end of the day, it was all just your sweet fantasy. i need to stop hoping. hoping like a sick idiot. i don't even know where i stand anymore. this may be just a game, but somehow my life was.. i don't know. i don't want to go all emo-ish in this post. emo sucks. everything sucks. i prefer just being here, thinking non-stop about her. okay, stop.
sometimes, breathing also becomes a burden. i think i have lost half my will to live.
i feel like carrying the weight of the milky way on my shoulder. seems weightless, yet sounded fucking heavy.
i don't like to talk about my problems. you have yours. i have mine. i'll listen to yours and help you out. but i'm not expecting you to help me too. unless my problems are associated with carry marks. then you're free to help me until the last bit.
i feel sad. fucked up. torn. but it is not fair for others to see me being like this. i shall fake a smile and walk out.
i like being alone. at least i feel peace, knowing i don't have to fake a smile at trees.
i hate complaining. but that's what i do best. besides eating.
i can't sleep lately. it's been two days now that i slept after subuh. luckily i still have the interest to go to lectures. i'm thankful for the conscience You gave me. i hope i won't waste it.
i've ran out of ideas on how to deal with my problem. it is so difficult for me to bear with this. i don't know how he can cope with his problem, and still smile after what happened to him. such a strong-willed guy. i wanted to be like him. but he's sleeping now. should i sleep, too?
i have nothing left to give you.
i don't like to talk about my problems. you have yours. i have mine. i'll listen to yours and help you out. but i'm not expecting you to help me too. unless my problems are associated with carry marks. then you're free to help me until the last bit.
i feel sad. fucked up. torn. but it is not fair for others to see me being like this. i shall fake a smile and walk out.
i like being alone. at least i feel peace, knowing i don't have to fake a smile at trees.
i hate complaining. but that's what i do best. besides eating.
i can't sleep lately. it's been two days now that i slept after subuh. luckily i still have the interest to go to lectures. i'm thankful for the conscience You gave me. i hope i won't waste it.
i've ran out of ideas on how to deal with my problem. it is so difficult for me to bear with this. i don't know how he can cope with his problem, and still smile after what happened to him. such a strong-willed guy. i wanted to be like him. but he's sleeping now. should i sleep, too?
i have nothing left to give you.
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i should study. quit with all the nonsense now.
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can't. procrastinate. anymore. zzZZz
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Sonia Marra: a Lifetime Memory
it's 6.18 in the morning and my eyes are wiiideee open. blame the energy drink.
recently i read my housemate's blog. i found it to be quite interesting to discover what he had in mind all this while. haha. and he was a sentimental writer. in which the posts he made were of deep value, i think. nevertheless, he always being the quiet one at home. hmm
rindu. aku rindu kau. it sounded scary, right. it's like a monster saying "AKU RINDU KAUUUU bgstvjmffdbjd" but the truth is, i truly missed you. the fact that i called you and didn't know what to say, is stupid. but i didn't regret my action. in fact, i was so thankful that you weren't annoyed by me.
it is hard to maintain friends when you know that you are deeply in love with the other. but i value this friendship. and i was afraid that if i tell her the truth, everything might not be the same again. it feels like a nuclear war in my head. it goes something similar to this:
i miss you (A),
but i'm afraid that the feelings aren't mutual, and if i confess, it will be awkward and blah blah (B)
and she's currently working 9-5 (C)
and i have my studies to take care of (D)
but then again, at the end of the day, i still miss you (A)
and everything goes back from (A) to (D) for about 15-20 times a day. sometimes more, perhaps. i didn't count this -.-
it's 6.37 in the morning. and i was hoping. hoping that she's having a sweet dream.
i love you la gila. i love you like crazy over here. (Z)
recently i read my housemate's blog. i found it to be quite interesting to discover what he had in mind all this while. haha. and he was a sentimental writer. in which the posts he made were of deep value, i think. nevertheless, he always being the quiet one at home. hmm
rindu. aku rindu kau. it sounded scary, right. it's like a monster saying "AKU RINDU KAUUUU bgstvjmffdbjd" but the truth is, i truly missed you. the fact that i called you and didn't know what to say, is stupid. but i didn't regret my action. in fact, i was so thankful that you weren't annoyed by me.
it is hard to maintain friends when you know that you are deeply in love with the other. but i value this friendship. and i was afraid that if i tell her the truth, everything might not be the same again. it feels like a nuclear war in my head. it goes something similar to this:
i miss you (A),
but i'm afraid that the feelings aren't mutual, and if i confess, it will be awkward and blah blah (B)
and she's currently working 9-5 (C)
and i have my studies to take care of (D)
but then again, at the end of the day, i still miss you (A)
and everything goes back from (A) to (D) for about 15-20 times a day. sometimes more, perhaps. i didn't count this -.-
it's 6.37 in the morning. and i was hoping. hoping that she's having a sweet dream.
i love you la gila. i love you like crazy over here. (Z)
Mark I
piles of assignments. quizzes. fucks.
so much things to do.
so little time.
yet i understand so little.
i wanted to turn the tables and start studying my ass off. but it seemed that my brain disagrees with me.
this is, by far, the worst procrastination that i've ever made.
sweetheart, you're sadly mistaken.
the reason i'm still writing blog posts is not because i'm a depressed, lonely boy over a girl that he has a crush on. no dear. we have bigger problems than that.
one of the reasons i still hold on to this blog is to see where i am now in my life. i get lost easily, and i need directions. like seriously.
people have lots of different reasons to wake up in the morning. i've just lost mine.
one of the reasons i still hold on to this blog is to see where i am now in my life. i get lost easily, and i need directions. like seriously.
people have lots of different reasons to wake up in the morning. i've just lost mine.
half a fortnight
mindless soul, wandering around this city as other people starts to sleep. looking at the time, it's half past 4 already. and they started playing cards. funny how i got into it after insisting it for quite some time. a card game, a cigarette, a hit. then another game, another stick, another hit. and it's being going for almost a week already. i wonder when will i hit the limit. maybe not for the time being.
Ddean answered the call.
"Halo haloooo~ manoi?"
"satgi la. depa mau gerak pkui ropa?"
"taktau. hg mai la sini dulu"
it always confuses me why i'm always looking for them, and when i'm with them, i just felt like hanging out all alone by myself. stupid mindfuck brain. i just hope for the best for the apocalypse tonight. i need to stock up candies first. amir and yunus finished it all last night -.-
long thoughts and self - reflections wouldn't help me escape this abyss. henceforth i just stopped hoping and started to mingle with this feeling of lostness and despair. emotional as it seemed, i still feel nothing inside. there's a void in my heart. and i don't know how to fill it in. it's hard not to feel all mellow-ish as i haven't felt happy for awhile. satisfied, maybe sometimes. but not happy. happy is when i smile from cheek to cheek (pipi ke pipi) haha.
this feeling is bothersome. but i'm too lazy to do anything with it. i'm lazy to do anything actually. i'm better off dead. but then it would be troublesome for my relatives to attend my funeral later on.
maybe i'm better off to sleep.
Ddean answered the call.
"Halo haloooo~ manoi?"
"satgi la. depa mau gerak pkui ropa?"
"taktau. hg mai la sini dulu"
it always confuses me why i'm always looking for them, and when i'm with them, i just felt like hanging out all alone by myself. stupid mindfuck brain. i just hope for the best for the apocalypse tonight. i need to stock up candies first. amir and yunus finished it all last night -.-
long thoughts and self - reflections wouldn't help me escape this abyss. henceforth i just stopped hoping and started to mingle with this feeling of lostness and despair. emotional as it seemed, i still feel nothing inside. there's a void in my heart. and i don't know how to fill it in. it's hard not to feel all mellow-ish as i haven't felt happy for awhile. satisfied, maybe sometimes. but not happy. happy is when i smile from cheek to cheek (pipi ke pipi) haha.
this feeling is bothersome. but i'm too lazy to do anything with it. i'm lazy to do anything actually. i'm better off dead. but then it would be troublesome for my relatives to attend my funeral later on.
maybe i'm better off to sleep.
saturday
i finally understand what she meant. it's basically just what i had in mind. but i'm just too tired to express sadness.
here you all equally worthless!
how i wish everything is as simple as getting high.
here you all equally worthless!
how i wish everything is as simple as getting high.
joints of junctions
unfamiliar with corsets and names, i still find myself indulged in the complexity of your short and forthcomings. hence the denial.
i didn't go to class again today. and i didn't feel any guilty conscience. i reckon i started to make this a habit of my own. a bad one, that is.
for about a good six years, i didn't notice that she was having a hard time, almost like mellow was her cup of tea. her best friend. and i just happen to know this last night, as i became a true stalker.
despite everything i've read, i still love her deeply. i think i have problems with my own feelings.
T minus 1 second before i started making stupid decisions, again.
i didn't go to class again today. and i didn't feel any guilty conscience. i reckon i started to make this a habit of my own. a bad one, that is.
for about a good six years, i didn't notice that she was having a hard time, almost like mellow was her cup of tea. her best friend. and i just happen to know this last night, as i became a true stalker.
despite everything i've read, i still love her deeply. i think i have problems with my own feelings.
T minus 1 second before i started making stupid decisions, again.
ephemeral
is what i think i'm having these few weeks back. it's funny how some people are actually feeling the same way as you do, despite the fact that he/she didn't even know you're existed.
last week. things started to get crazy the moment Yunus finished his tutorial on Friday evening, and everything went all downhill from there when Amir and the Abercrombies joined -____- bukan salah kau pun Yunus. let it be haha.
i need to step back into reality more often now. i need to take responsibility for everything. lately i've been feeling like, i don't know. sooo empty. i don't get the excitedness of seeing morning sunshine anymore. it's like there's nothing there. nada. i don't think i have any wills left inside me. crushed as i may seem, i still want to live -___- i don't wanna daii. haha. not just yet, insyaAllah.
it's 3.42 am in the morning. and i don't feel sleepy at all. just some random thoughts going in and out of my mind.
this is really not good. what is happening to me?
last week. things started to get crazy the moment Yunus finished his tutorial on Friday evening, and everything went all downhill from there when Amir and the Abercrombies joined -____- bukan salah kau pun Yunus. let it be haha.
i need to step back into reality more often now. i need to take responsibility for everything. lately i've been feeling like, i don't know. sooo empty. i don't get the excitedness of seeing morning sunshine anymore. it's like there's nothing there. nada. i don't think i have any wills left inside me. crushed as i may seem, i still want to live -___- i don't wanna daii. haha. not just yet, insyaAllah.
it's 3.42 am in the morning. and i don't feel sleepy at all. just some random thoughts going in and out of my mind.
this is really not good. what is happening to me?
premature ventricular contraction
i want to change the lifestyle that i'm living on. from now on, i'll go to class. be a normal student as other healthy, normal student should be. but, at the same time, i'll continue to be who i am now. it's like living a double life, perhaps. those who know me here would understand what i'm talking about.
the existence of the newly bought (codename: Apple) has given me many opportunities to do what i do best. plus, it is quite easy for me to get (codename: candy) from my friends. the only thing that's keeping me from not doing it was myself. it was too easy to create a new session anywhere, anytime now. and i'm quite aware of that. but i'm still a student :( why should i be like this? shit. i hate self-reflecting.
it's already 2.37 pm here. i have lab session at 4. i need to decide, either to be a student, or to be the other option.
i think i'll take both. will update soon the result of taking both ways -_____-
the existence of the newly bought (codename: Apple) has given me many opportunities to do what i do best. plus, it is quite easy for me to get (codename: candy) from my friends. the only thing that's keeping me from not doing it was myself. it was too easy to create a new session anywhere, anytime now. and i'm quite aware of that. but i'm still a student :( why should i be like this? shit. i hate self-reflecting.
it's already 2.37 pm here. i have lab session at 4. i need to decide, either to be a student, or to be the other option.
i think i'll take both. will update soon the result of taking both ways -_____-
the King
i think i've become too ignorant lately.
i haven't seen sunshine for awhile now. woke up just to see another night. i wonder, will i continue to live my life like this?
and they said that studying can be considered as a job. well, i usually work at night. and sleep during the day. sometimes i pity myself. biological clock of mine has gone haywire.
sometimes i would ask myself, why did i choose this path? i've become the man i least wanted to be when i was still a little kid. i know that we all became different when we grow up. but i knew that i can be better than this. better than who i am now. but i choose to remain this way. i choose to be the same.
the cold shivering night weeps as i light up another cigarrete. as i stare at the moon, i ask myself a question.
will i be able to endure this dark life that i'm living in?
i haven't seen sunshine for awhile now. woke up just to see another night. i wonder, will i continue to live my life like this?
and they said that studying can be considered as a job. well, i usually work at night. and sleep during the day. sometimes i pity myself. biological clock of mine has gone haywire.
sometimes i would ask myself, why did i choose this path? i've become the man i least wanted to be when i was still a little kid. i know that we all became different when we grow up. but i knew that i can be better than this. better than who i am now. but i choose to remain this way. i choose to be the same.
the cold shivering night weeps as i light up another cigarrete. as i stare at the moon, i ask myself a question.
will i be able to endure this dark life that i'm living in?
harley quinn
this week was hectic. the mood of eid still lingers around the neighbourhood. pegi beraya. lab and tutorials lagi. however, sessions in the night are always on. huhu
i'm thankful to god, but i'm feeling guilty at the same time. studies starting to get ridiculous, as always.
time is ticking. but it hasn't seem to be going anywhere.
ibiza
for 5 minutes, i just stared at the monitor, thinking what should i type for this post. i ended up staring for another 5 minutes.
oh, yunus start baca blog aku hari ni. hai yunus!
today i feel like i just achieved something. no sleep from last night, and attended all class for today. in weng mode. hihi
sometimes to do what's right, is by doing the wrong thing.
hari ni semua lagu jiwang kat radio, dan time shuffle ipod. kenapa mesti hari ni?
oh, yunus start baca blog aku hari ni. hai yunus!
today i feel like i just achieved something. no sleep from last night, and attended all class for today. in weng mode. hihi
sometimes to do what's right, is by doing the wrong thing.
hari ni semua lagu jiwang kat radio, dan time shuffle ipod. kenapa mesti hari ni?
3:57 AM
watched the dark knight rises today. and it makes me wonder, if ever a man like bruce wayne ever existed.
no, it's not about the money or the girls he had, but the will. he lost his parents when he was still a kid. what's more terrifying, they were both killed in front of his eyes. living alone in this world, without anyone related to you is like dying a slow and painful death. heck, even people of gotham city hates him for the death of harvey dent. no, no spoilers here. and he still risked his life to save the city. hmm
enough with fairy tales. let's rewind to this morning. i woke up today, only to be disappointed by the morning sunshine. the whole house didn't woke up for sahur today. feeling sad, i went back to sleep and missed my physics lecture. haha. to think that i could start this semester with a new resolution. pfft
lately i've been spending too much time on my head. as introvert as it may seem, i started to feel better here. homesick starts to fade away slowly, but i still hope to return to Malaysia whenever i could. time is ticking without sympathy. maybe celebrating raya here wouldn't be such a bad idea. of course, the best place to be is Malaysia. when you've been away from your home country, it will be the only place that you miss the most.
i don't know what the future holds, but keeping this feeling for myself has made me a man full of imaginations, you know. too much imagination in your head could destroy yourself too. being friends is nice, but i want more than that. so much more. don't get me wrong, i'm just a normal guy :/ but the waiting should stop. i hate telling to myself that she would be the one. i've loved her since day one we first met back in the days. of course it's me who should man up and talk to her about this, but everytime she's there, my mind goes blanky-blank. such love drunk. only this blog is where i could let out what i had in mind.
being too secretive is not good, but i have my own reasons. you'll find another man. it was good while it lasts. i loved you before, and always do. clapping with one hand is stupid, and it stops now.
will i ever grew up?
oh btw, happy birthday sofia! you've grown up now. i can see myself in you. i can see myself in both my little sisters. i love you guys lots. don't miss me too much okay. tolong umi masak kuih raya tau. jangan main mercun ja. i'll be home before you know it :)
maybe there's still hope.
no, it's not about the money or the girls he had, but the will. he lost his parents when he was still a kid. what's more terrifying, they were both killed in front of his eyes. living alone in this world, without anyone related to you is like dying a slow and painful death. heck, even people of gotham city hates him for the death of harvey dent. no, no spoilers here. and he still risked his life to save the city. hmm
enough with fairy tales. let's rewind to this morning. i woke up today, only to be disappointed by the morning sunshine. the whole house didn't woke up for sahur today. feeling sad, i went back to sleep and missed my physics lecture. haha. to think that i could start this semester with a new resolution. pfft
lately i've been spending too much time on my head. as introvert as it may seem, i started to feel better here. homesick starts to fade away slowly, but i still hope to return to Malaysia whenever i could. time is ticking without sympathy. maybe celebrating raya here wouldn't be such a bad idea. of course, the best place to be is Malaysia. when you've been away from your home country, it will be the only place that you miss the most.
i don't know what the future holds, but keeping this feeling for myself has made me a man full of imaginations, you know. too much imagination in your head could destroy yourself too. being friends is nice, but i want more than that. so much more. don't get me wrong, i'm just a normal guy :/ but the waiting should stop. i hate telling to myself that she would be the one. i've loved her since day one we first met back in the days. of course it's me who should man up and talk to her about this, but everytime she's there, my mind goes blanky-blank. such love drunk. only this blog is where i could let out what i had in mind.
being too secretive is not good, but i have my own reasons. you'll find another man. it was good while it lasts. i loved you before, and always do. clapping with one hand is stupid, and it stops now.
will i ever grew up?
oh btw, happy birthday sofia! you've grown up now. i can see myself in you. i can see myself in both my little sisters. i love you guys lots. don't miss me too much okay. tolong umi masak kuih raya tau. jangan main mercun ja. i'll be home before you know it :)
maybe there's still hope.
blitzkrieg
i guess homesick is inevitable.
i arrived yesterday with the cold wind shivering down my bones. lulz, sounds like a direct translation, no?
i looked up the important dates for this semester to see if there's an opening for me to go back to Malaysia for raya this year, only to disappoint myself. the only holiday for this semester is on 24 - 30th of September. which is quite far off the raya itself. how lucky.
i was tired when i arrived at the airport and planned to sleep all day, ended up going to signal and system lecture and had iftar at uni's musolla. catching up with friends was fun indeed.
i think the reason for me being homesick was because i slept too much back in Malaysia. too much that i've lost my the time to spend with my family. hmm
now that i'm awake, still i need to go back to sleep for sahur later, but i don't know when is the time they normally wake up for sahur here -________- probably around 4 perhaps.
i'm here already. i should make the best out of it.
no more games.
perhaps a little? maybe.
homesick is one fucked up feeling. you should try it, too.
i arrived yesterday with the cold wind shivering down my bones. lulz, sounds like a direct translation, no?
i looked up the important dates for this semester to see if there's an opening for me to go back to Malaysia for raya this year, only to disappoint myself. the only holiday for this semester is on 24 - 30th of September. which is quite far off the raya itself. how lucky.
i was tired when i arrived at the airport and planned to sleep all day, ended up going to signal and system lecture and had iftar at uni's musolla. catching up with friends was fun indeed.
i think the reason for me being homesick was because i slept too much back in Malaysia. too much that i've lost my the time to spend with my family. hmm
now that i'm awake, still i need to go back to sleep for sahur later, but i don't know when is the time they normally wake up for sahur here -________- probably around 4 perhaps.
i'm here already. i should make the best out of it.
no more games.
perhaps a little? maybe.
homesick is one fucked up feeling. you should try it, too.
picture.
it's friday now. how time flies. the first week of 2nd semester is almost over.
i wonder why i still couldn't find contentment?
too much judgement? perhaps.
too much self-indulgence? possibly.
too much thinking? not really.
i have problems in writing posts of higher literature. however, i'm quite fond of them despite the fact that i couldn't write it. i find it amusing how people could actually write something of that complexity.
people have their own problems to dealt with.
some help others to solve their problems.
some are lucky enough to not have any problems at all while others strive to face theirs.
life is indeed unfair, no?
i wonder why i still couldn't find contentment?
too much judgement? perhaps.
too much self-indulgence? possibly.
too much thinking? not really.
i have problems in writing posts of higher literature. however, i'm quite fond of them despite the fact that i couldn't write it. i find it amusing how people could actually write something of that complexity.
people have their own problems to dealt with.
some help others to solve their problems.
some are lucky enough to not have any problems at all while others strive to face theirs.
life is indeed unfair, no?
ambiguous
i can't tell dreams from reality nowadays.
a lot of things going on my mind lately. and i can't seem to set my priorities straight.
i assume this new semester shall be another downfall?
a lot of things going on my mind lately. and i can't seem to set my priorities straight.
i assume this new semester shall be another downfall?
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*a new post commences*
*a new post ends*
aku saja tulih lagu tu kt ataih ni, nk check problem enter ni dh ok ke tk. huhu
i dreamed of her today. not wet dreams, not nabila. but her. the dream was so real that i don't want to wake up. tp terbangun jugak. shik
i hate the fact that dreams are more beautiful than realities.
going back to terengganu after sahur, head to mahkamah for the results, then after iftar, will be heading back to ki il. a short itinerary of my day ahead huhu
tonight i learned that i have chinese, arab n melayu blood flowing in me. patut la muka mcm christian bale.
kadang kadang aku rasa nk tampar diri sendiri bila dgr lawak aku.
*a new post ends*
aku saja tulih lagu tu kt ataih ni, nk check problem enter ni dh ok ke tk. huhu
i dreamed of her today. not wet dreams, not nabila. but her. the dream was so real that i don't want to wake up. tp terbangun jugak. shik
i hate the fact that dreams are more beautiful than realities.
going back to terengganu after sahur, head to mahkamah for the results, then after iftar, will be heading back to ki il. a short itinerary of my day ahead huhu
tonight i learned that i have chinese, arab n melayu blood flowing in me. patut la muka mcm christian bale.
kadang kadang aku rasa nk tampar diri sendiri bila dgr lawak aku.
forgiveness is the best revenge
finally, after countless time to try making new post, i finally succeed!
this is a post by phone, and the post made by phones suck. they wouldn't recognize if i press enter. hence, it will look like the post i made before this. fugly. so bear with me for awhile.
in this very post, i would like to apologize to che nabila. for breaking your heart almost a year back in 2011.
i am currently in my hometown now, all alone and bored when i started reading my old posts.
it seemed that my old self wasn't me, at all. no it isn't. me before this shows affection to nabila too publicly. i myself find it quite, annoying. but i won't delete the old posts.
sayang here sayang there. baby here baby there. bangarang tkmau?
no it's not nabila's fault. it's good to show affection to people you love. but that was maybe a bit far off.
i'm sorry for everything, nabila. how about we become friends? :)
now back to reality. or maybe we shall continue in another post?
i'm sorry if i'm an asshole. there should be a better man for you. goodluck in your life!
this is a post by phone, and the post made by phones suck. they wouldn't recognize if i press enter. hence, it will look like the post i made before this. fugly. so bear with me for awhile.
in this very post, i would like to apologize to che nabila. for breaking your heart almost a year back in 2011.
i am currently in my hometown now, all alone and bored when i started reading my old posts.
it seemed that my old self wasn't me, at all. no it isn't. me before this shows affection to nabila too publicly. i myself find it quite, annoying. but i won't delete the old posts.
sayang here sayang there. baby here baby there. bangarang tkmau?
no it's not nabila's fault. it's good to show affection to people you love. but that was maybe a bit far off.
i'm sorry for everything, nabila. how about we become friends? :)
now back to reality. or maybe we shall continue in another post?
i'm sorry if i'm an asshole. there should be a better man for you. goodluck in your life!
before the lobotomy
inspite of everything that has happened, i still could smile my way out of it.
try listen to the blackout city kids - wrong turn. awesome song, really suits the mood.
kakak gua mesti bangga gua promot lagu die dlm blog gua. hiks
ramadhan is coming. it's time for some real test.
oh btw, i just finished watching shaolin soccer. with no subtitles. i think i can speak cantonese now.
cause i've made a mistake. i think i took a wrong turn. somewhere along the way. i sealed my fate. and all i know is that you're gone. you've gone away. i'll never touch your face, i'll never see you again.
susah rupanya taip post guna fon. lulz
won't you take me where the street lights glow?
and they say change is inevitable.
i second that statement. i think, over the past few months, i have changed quite a few things about myself. lack of confidence, lack of socializing, lack of smile, perhaps. everything has changed, changed to a better me. i like this change. however, i find that this feeling still hasn't changed.
that sad moment when the person you love is standing right in front of you, and you could only just say 'hi'.
no, i don't want to rush things. it's too risky to take things to the next level, even though i don't know about her feelings. 50-50 is my friend for a long time now. like the post title, i wouldn't know what it will be until i finished writing this post, hence it could be anything.
and i knew that i love her from the very first time we met.
for the past few days i could not keep my mind of her, regardless day or night, sane or insane. you're still there. it doesn't annoy me, but the opposite. it keeps reminding me about you. how are you. have you eaten. are you well? the same cliche question left unanswered till this day, perhaps forever.
padahal bleh ja msg, huhu
T - minus 18 days till i took off to Sydney. still a long hols to keep myself occupied with bed activities, and her, too.
i second that statement. i think, over the past few months, i have changed quite a few things about myself. lack of confidence, lack of socializing, lack of smile, perhaps. everything has changed, changed to a better me. i like this change. however, i find that this feeling still hasn't changed.
that sad moment when the person you love is standing right in front of you, and you could only just say 'hi'.
no, i don't want to rush things. it's too risky to take things to the next level, even though i don't know about her feelings. 50-50 is my friend for a long time now. like the post title, i wouldn't know what it will be until i finished writing this post, hence it could be anything.
and i knew that i love her from the very first time we met.
for the past few days i could not keep my mind of her, regardless day or night, sane or insane. you're still there. it doesn't annoy me, but the opposite. it keeps reminding me about you. how are you. have you eaten. are you well? the same cliche question left unanswered till this day, perhaps forever.
padahal bleh ja msg, huhu
T - minus 18 days till i took off to Sydney. still a long hols to keep myself occupied with bed activities, and her, too.
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