Save the Queen.
In the early month of this year, I have lost myself in total confusion about life, and the meaning behind it. I was stuck with this problem of mine that I did not share with anyone, not even my parents. It struck me hard, and I fell down deep.
Last semester was probably the semester that I wouldn't know a single shit that I studied. I started to study for the exam the day the study week starts, which is only for a week. And by that, what I meant is, that before the study week commences, I hardly even go to class, tutorials, and sometimes, even lab sessions. that's how far I've lost myself.
Maybe you thought that I was cracking jokes, making up stories about me being lost, and couldn't find myself. Well, truth be told, I don't need to prove anything to anyone. At least, I know it's the truth.
When I went back to Malaysia for winter break, I still have some confusion in myself. I got angry easily, hard to smile, to say the least, I didn't feel like being myself.
When I got back to Sydney, somehow, I think the confusion has cleared. And I felt the feeling of being home. Actually, I tried to memorize the feeling of being at home while in Malaysia so that I wouldn't feel so homesick when I got back to Sydney. Hehe.
And here's the main point of this post. There's this girl. That I didn't remember knowing, who happens to be on my friend list in Facebook. She's pretty, and quite tall, I presume. Well, physical appearances aside, I read her blog yesterday. I don't know if I am too 'syok sendiri' or 'angau' etc, but man, I think she has the same thought about life, like me. I don't know if you get the point, but every time I read a post, I always nodded and smile and say, "yeah, I would do the same as well. lulz!"
But you know. I suck at approaching girls. Really. Dah la tak reti nak borak dgn pompuan, dia duk jauh pulak tu.
But again, she sparks something in me.
I need to meet her. I don't want the friendship to start from Facebook's private message. That feels stupid for me, and annoying for her, I'm sure. At least after we meet, she would know who she's talking with.
My life has aims again, thanks to you. Fizzy - cola.
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