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*a new post commences*
*a new post ends*

aku saja tulih lagu tu kt ataih ni, nk check problem enter ni dh ok ke tk. huhu

i dreamed of her today. not wet dreams, not nabila. but her. the dream was so real that i don't want to wake up. tp terbangun jugak. shik

i hate the fact that dreams are more beautiful than realities.

going back to terengganu after sahur, head to mahkamah for the results, then after iftar, will be heading back to ki il. a short itinerary of my day ahead huhu

tonight i learned that i have chinese, arab n melayu blood flowing in me. patut la muka mcm christian bale.

kadang kadang aku rasa nk tampar diri sendiri bila dgr lawak aku.

forgiveness is the best revenge

finally, after countless time to try making new post, i finally succeed!

this is a post by phone, and the post made by phones suck. they wouldn't recognize if i press enter. hence, it will look like the post i made before this. fugly. so bear with me for awhile.

in this very post, i would like to apologize to che nabila. for breaking your heart almost a year back in 2011.

i am currently in my hometown now, all alone and bored when i started reading my old posts.

it seemed that my old self wasn't me, at all. no it isn't. me before this shows affection to nabila too publicly. i myself find it quite, annoying. but i won't delete the old posts.

sayang here sayang there. baby here baby there. bangarang tkmau?

no it's not nabila's fault. it's good to show affection to people you love. but that was maybe a bit far off.

i'm sorry for everything, nabila. how about we become friends? :)

now back to reality. or maybe we shall continue in another post?

i'm sorry if i'm an asshole. there should be a better man for you. goodluck in your life!

before the lobotomy

inspite of everything that has happened, i still could smile my way out of it. try listen to the blackout city kids - wrong turn. awesome song, really suits the mood. kakak gua mesti bangga gua promot lagu die dlm blog gua. hiks ramadhan is coming. it's time for some real test. oh btw, i just finished watching shaolin soccer. with no subtitles. i think i can speak cantonese now. cause i've made a mistake. i think i took a wrong turn. somewhere along the way. i sealed my fate. and all i know is that you're gone. you've gone away. i'll never touch your face, i'll never see you again. susah rupanya taip post guna fon. lulz

won't you take me where the street lights glow?

and they say change is inevitable.

i second that statement. i think, over the past few months, i have changed quite a few things about myself. lack of confidence, lack of socializing, lack of smile, perhaps. everything has changed, changed to a better me. i like this change. however, i find that this feeling still hasn't changed.

that sad moment when the person you love is standing right in front of you, and you could only just say 'hi'.

no, i don't want to rush things. it's too risky to take things to the next level, even though i don't know about her feelings. 50-50 is my friend for a long time now. like the post title, i wouldn't know what it will be until i finished writing this post, hence it could be anything.

and i knew that i love her from the very first time we met.

for the past few days i could not keep my mind of her, regardless day or night, sane or insane. you're still there. it doesn't annoy me, but the opposite. it keeps reminding me about you. how are you. have you eaten. are you well? the same cliche question left unanswered till this day, perhaps forever.

padahal bleh ja msg, huhu

T - minus 18 days till i took off to Sydney. still a long hols to keep myself occupied with bed activities, and her, too.